Change is an amazing thing. What is tricky is how one reacts to it, and what is more amazing is what sparks these changes in one life.
Lately in life I have hit a bit of a stagnation period. I work a good job for over a year, have a steady relationship, a steady living situation, over all everything has been working out in a way that has allowed me to relax and just exist for a while. Which for a while was all I wanted.
However lately, and even in the hight of this comfort, I have been found wanting of something more. At times making drastic life changes, and at the last moment backing out of them; all in the want of something more or different. Still as things have become more stable, or rather more clear I have found sparkings for greater change.
About a month ago I got inspired and started waking up earlier, running and doing an hour of very intense yoga. As these things go, the more I practiced the more I just started to get answers coming from deep inside myself that I did not even know existed, or rather I forgot.
As these things kept going through the weeks, work started getting more stressful, then little less, then to a high alert status of stress. This week I found myself towards the end, remembering the important dreams and ideas I had that I thought had long died within my heart. Moreover, things I thought I have become too old to accomplish.
I am this year 26, and until this year I have spent every birthday stressing out that I have done nothing with my life and was running out of time to run this amazing life. Further the more that I walked away from radical life changing ideas the more complacent I became in a sedentary life, while the blurrier my goals and path grew.
I was unhappy there was no doubt about that. Granted I loved my boyfriend, my residence, and the people I worked with. Before I had come to a conclusion that without a destination I could find no happiness.
Well back to the issue of change. At the peak of metamorphous, I found myself more and more faced with people moving on and bettering their lives. I was even watching TV shows that had this as a theme. Then a beautiful thing happened. A friend started going for a new position at work and had something even better recommended with a great interview.
My brain started reeling. I could go for a number of the better jobs at work, and most likely get them; but I did not want to stay at this company forever. I wanted to end my twenties doing something or working toward something I wanted to do.
I changed. Passively, peacefully, and working to progress further. The more I practice the more things became clear. No longer did I have a bitter resentment or a questioning nature regarding why things were not happening to me; but rather saw the changes around me happing in sequential order needed to help me get to the place I want to go. I harnessed the changing energy around me, made my life a better place.